Counsel Time

Yep it was that time again, and im pretty sure that it was waaaaay over due.

Went to counseling again. It was nice i have to say. It really helps me get some stress out and get quite a few things out in the open. Talking about being gay and how my parents are and how they react to me and all the issues that i have been thru really helps put things into perceptive. It just great sitting and talking to someone with out them judging me that im gay. It almost just hanging out and getting out stress and such. Joe is a great guy, im glad that he doesnt judge me for things. And that he doesnt try to 'fix' me. My mom thinks that i can be fixed. But honestly there is nothing to 'fix'. But ya she doesnt know that its mostly just a stress talk, and very relaxed. Prob if she found out she would send me to one of those gay camp things.

Geezeeeee even the thought makes me shudder a bit. The thought of them trying to 'make me straight'. Talk about some really horrible long lasting effects. Crazyness all over. And the fact that how often does that really work. Just shove the gay back in the closet is more like it. My mom would LOVE that, she just wants to keep it all hush hush and pretend like it never happened. Gah parents, i want to get thru to them in some way.

But ya counseling is nice, but i think going 6 months is a bit too long. i mean i have to drive 2 hrs then an hour session talking about the last 6 months of my life, then a 2 hr drive back. talk about draining. afterwords i feel like i need to have some food and then sleep for the rest of the day. Saddly i couldnt. Gah stupid busy, where is the pause button.

Well the next one is a day in finals week that i have nothing, so it will be sooooo much better and less busy. Nice relaxing day, and the fact that i wont miss two classes in the process.

But ya i have a line up of interesting things post on the blog so stay tuned.