It was bound to happen sooner or later, when you hit the situations in life where you have to pick one thing over another. You either do this, or this, not both. You have to sit down and take a look around and see what will play out in the long run, you want to do both but your not superman, so its not going to happen at all. So right now i have to make choices about what i want more, and then try to pick up the pieces as i go along and not try to drop anything along the way. And hopefully i will finish out the school year above the water rather than below.
Had a pretty awesome birthday party, it was people i knew quite well so that always helps out. And even better i didnt wake up on the bathroom floor dressed as Abe Lincoln. And got to spend the next day with my best friend, Alison, that came down. We had a great day, even tho its a town with mostly nothing for college students to enjoy. And thanks for letting me copy your music onto my computer, now i can listen to music for a month straight and not hear the same song twice!!!
Besides that, things have been stressful lately, mainly due to the fact that i have no idea how i am going to make it in the real world yet, most of me just wants to stay at college for another year and figure life out for a bit before im off on my own. I honestly dont know how i am going to make it just yet. I am really not sleeping well, eatting well and its effecting my daily life. And honestly i really dont need any more stress or drama in my life right now. But people have the worst timing and will drag me into drama over stupid stuff, and honestly im sorry about it all, but i just dont have time or energy to deal with it. I think that im going to have to be selfish and focus on me here for the next few months just to make sure that things work out right. So im sorry about your problems, i will try to help you with them, but please dont suck me into them with you. I have enough that has changed and will change within the next couple of months that i dont need all of that to worry about.
I just really want someone that i can at the end of the day come home and lay next to and just not worry about the stress of the day or anything else. Just lay there and enjoy the time together. As well find a job that i will at least somewhat enjoy getting up every day and going to. It would also help to figure out the real world sometime soon. I think that would be the best. But for now i would just like to be able to sleep at normal times and be able to eat real normal food. Thats what i starting to work on to control the stress more. In bed early, wake up at a good time, eat good food, and work out a bit, I just need it to kick in sometime soon here.
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