Missing.....

I know.... well maybe i dont, but i am missing people being in my life, many which had an influence on my life, and helped me out more than they will ever know, and some have no idea that they helped me out, but they did.

I feel like i need to reach out again to those people, so they can have some part in my life again.... gosh that sounds quite selfish of me. But i miss having them in my life. And honestly i dont know what i would do if they werent a part of my life back then.

As well as i do miss the first few years of college, things seemed simple then, with the friendships and the fun times. most of which have come and gone. which just futher reminds me how much things have changed over the past few years and closely approaching the real world. Part of which scares me, and other parts which just excite me. I mean working day in and out, go to work, come home, make dinner, tv and bed. honestly thats just not that life for me. I need something a bit more active where i am moving a bit more, and going places.

I know i am freaking out quite a bit but honestly, i have felt like things are slowly falling apart around me. But im not just watching by any means, im fighting back, and kicking some butt and taking names. Its a constant juggling act right now. And i feel like i have lost some great contact with some great friends.

I really need to start those back up. Working on the list right now of people that influenced my life that i would like back in my life.... and go.....