Abandoned

It was like you abandoned me

From the very start

I was so small

And you just left me

Not once, but

Everyday

It was like you could look right thru me

I was just Air

Not even there

I tried to find you

But even when you where there

I still couldn’t find you

You were lost to me

A missing part of my life

One of the most important parts

The few times I did find you

I only wanted to run the other way

Run and hide

Torn in two, dreams and hopes broken

One of the only people who could break something

Something so great.

You probably thought

I would wait

Wait for you

See me there waiting for you to come back

I could only wait so long

So long before

I had to finish that chapter

And the next one

And the next

And you weren't in any of them

I had to write you out

Had to let you go

I finished that book

Nailed it shut

Then you turned around

Saw me for the first time

But to me you were a stranger

Someone that I never knew

I tried so had to pull the nails out of that book

And write you back in

But they wouldn’t give

And the ink had dried

And the pages were filled

Now I don’t know what to do

You are there

Wanting to be written back in

But im not sure how to

After all the times that I was let down

How do I write

Someone back in

Someone like that

Someone that brings back all the sad memories

Someone that I one have one happy memory

That of a picture that I have clung to

A picture that I don’t even remember

You were once lost

Time has pasted

I don’t know if its possible to go back

Back and rewrite the pages of my life

All cause you abandoned me

From the very start

Abandoned everyday

For twenty years

How can I go back that far

How do I write someone

Someone that was lost to me