V-day

Well today is Valentines Day its bittersweet it is. On one hand, this year is much better than last year

Last year i spent the whole day laying in bed crying my eyes out, cause the one i loved said a few weeks before that he didnt love me and he loved his ex BF that he had gotten back with. And then talked to me about what he was going to do for his BF and all the amazing things, even tho he didnt mean to, it made me feel worse, and then when things werent going his way and his plans didnt work out as he hoped i had to tell him that he still had time and be there and tell him what he needed to do, while having my heart torn in two. Lets just say that the day was not fun at all

This year i dont have anyone, but it more my choice than anything, i have dated the guy that hurt me and it was great, but things were just not as i hoped they were. i just couldnt provide time enough for a relationship as i hoped to. So things ended

But now i just want someone to spend this day with, i just want someone, i now it sounds selfish but still. it would be nice to just fall asleep in someones arms and have fun with.

Even tho the day is almost over it just reminds me of what i dont have, i dont have a relationship and i miss not having one.

But this weekend should take away that, im going out with friends and going to the club to dance and let loose and have some fun. So with plans for the weekend things should be better.

Who knows what love has in store for me.