Wonderful Awful Dream

So its still there
That dream of mine
The one with you and me
Nothing will let it be

There are some things
I don’t want to see
I just want to be me

I go to bed
Lay my head
Dream of you instead

I then wake
To find it was just a dream
And have to tell myself
“I don’t love you”

I know it’s not true
But it’s what I have to do
It hurts so bad
Sometimes it makes me mad.

But its still there
That dream of mine
The one with you and me
And nothing will let it be

Help me Find a Rock

Help me,
Please, wont you help me?
I only ask for one thing
I need to find a rock

I once had a rock to cling to
But now I have nothing
I am but a pebble in the sea

I was once able to cling
To many rocks
Now I have none

I gave up my rocks
For just one
I thought it was stable
But these rocks never are

Now im floating along
In the mighty ocean
With nothing to cling to
Nothing to weather the storm

All I want is some help now
I just need one thing
I want you to help me
So I can be me again

Help me,
Please wont you help me?
I only ask for one thing
I need to find a rock

Paradise at War

It was my escape
To run and hid away
I want to run to it now
But I know that it is not the same

It was once a place
Far beyond everything else
Nothing could reach me

Nothing screaming
Nothing hurting
Nothing at all

The only sound
The wind whispering
The only sight
The ever setting sun

I could get lost there forever
Forget about the world
And about my home

But now it’s a war zone
Torn in to pieces
People taken sides
The battle waged

Now that paradise
Is slowly being blown away
Like it was never going to stay

I have to go there
To that paradise that I once knew
And face that war
To save the paradise
That has saved me.

Pain Day

This stupid day
It brings pain
In every which way
It comes once every year

Nothing changes
No one to love
No one to share
With no love in the air

Things were fine
I pushed everything out
And then went on
Then you called
Things crashed into the ground

I almost made it
Thru this day
Then that call
I didn’t sit well
But I still let you tell

You talked about him
I didn’t want to listen
But I was there for you
I stood by you
Told you everything would be ok

You still have time
To make things right
So work with it and make it right
Have some will left to fight

You have some one
Someone to love
Someone to hold
Someone to share
That love in the air

When that happens
Remember that YOU are in LOVE
And YOU have TIME
To make everything right
YOU have that SOMEONE

Picture

I saw that picture today
I don’t know why it affected me so
Everything seemed to melt away
The pain came back
The hurt still there
I still don’t know how this came to bare
One minute just there
The next, back in that same black hole
I can’t believe that I fell in there
I hurt the first time; you think I would know better
But I am just a fool
It is now burned into my memory, with not much to do
Now I have to start erasing that picture all over again
The one that I woke up with inside my head
I saw that picture in my head today
Don’t want it to be there any way
So I have to erase it once more
But part of me is still not sure
And I saw that picture again

Mistake of a Slip

(Picture; MISTAKES - It could be that the purpose of your life is only to serve as a warning to others)

It slipped, it happened
I don’t know why
It just flew right by
And once again it’s something that I can’t unlive

I promised myself that I would go there
Now I feel like I cant breath the air
I have to leave it, and grin and bare

I hate that this could happen
I have this feeling stuck in me.
Nothing will let it be
I don’t want anyone to see.

But it happened once, and people know
It happened twice, and it doesn’t go
If it ever happens again I don’t know if I could say so.

The wounds are still there,
But are too numb to feel any pain in the air
There is nothing left to hurt.
All I have left is my shirt.

Pain doesn’t feel any more.
Things have become a bore.

I just don’t know what to do.
I just hate that I love you.
What else could I do?
I just don’t want to

Things happened and they slipped
Now all the world is tipped
Everything again is ripped

I can’t slip again
I happened twice
Although it was nice
It feels colder than ice

Friends

We were once close friends
Not even seeing the end
Nothing to heal or mend

We both didn’t see this thing
But it hit like a huge bang
And since then nothing has been sane

I jumped into the deep-end without looking twice
I thought that it sounded so nice
But it now feels like I was submerged in ice

I know now that it shouldn’t have been done
But we are now two instead of one
And I have not been having fun
And there seems to be no sun

We try to fix and mend
So things don’t come to an end
And so we can still be friends

Im not sure what will become
And things will end some
But in the end I hope to numb
All this pain that has come

So now we try
And hope not to cry
And to fix and mend
So our friendship does not end.

Patches

A patch here
A stitch there
And im falling apart everywhere

Things are just piece
That once laid in a heap
Now they seem to ceases to exist

Sown together
Patched and glue
Im not sure there is much more to do

I hope they hold
Because im not that bold
As I was once told

Another patch
Another stitch
Hope it will fix it in a pinch

Things hang there
As the string hold them
But really its just the air
That blows right thru them

A patch here
A stitch here
And if everything goes my way
Nothing will fall apart today