I won't lie and say every day is easy, cause it's not. With parents that treat it like the elephant in the room, if we don't talk about it, it isn't really there. Not many close gay friends to hang out with in the area. And family friends that just don't want to know. It is the little things that build up over time and just wear me out, and beat me down. And I just feel like I dont want to do anything. Some days it's just a fake it thru with a smile and a laugh and continue on. Get to many of those and your body will start to show the wear and tear of them. And with sleeping and eating not being a regular thing the body reacts more to the stresses. I just try to zone out and go into a different place, but then a video like this gives me a bit of hope and reminds that it will get better someday. If a BYU student can go thru and deal with these things then I know that I can as well.
While I won't say it will always be easy, and I can't promise that I won't fake a smile and a laugh some days. I am looking for the day where it will start to get better.
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