What about another year

Ill be honest...

the real world scares me to death. There are days in which i would love to be out in the real world doing amazing things. And other times that i have no clue what i am going to do when i get out into the real world.

I am honestly thinking about another year in college picking up some minors and such while i have a bit more time to add upon what i would like to do when i get to the real world, as well as try to let the recession start to let up on its death grip. I would love to pick up a few languages, the first two would be German and Spanish. As well as add onto my urban planning minor with things such as sustainability, transit, and neighborhood/community planning.

And when i get out into the real world part of people knows that i might just fall flat on my face. Which i am glad i have my job right now to keep me stable. i know that it will be there when i need to go back to something. But looking down the road im not sure if i want to be an Urban Planner, other things that i have thought about is to do something with a youth group, but i know that would be hard with me being gay and all. And then even other things would be dealing with the paranormal and such, which i do love by all means, im just not sure that it is me. There are some other things but all of them are just floating right now. I just feel confused by a lot of things right now. And part of me justs wants that extra year to think things thru. But at the moment im like do i even want another year, or would i even make it thru another year???

Too much to think about at this point ill have to think about this at another point, once i have gotten more information upon the subject at hand and talked to a few people about all of it.

VBS

Well the first week of Aug has come and gone and with it was VBS for my church. Well lets just say that it was awesome and painful at the same time. Things were crazy for the whole week and trying to keep to a time schld with everyone and everything running around was hard as hell. From yelling at the church for lack of support to finally getting it, and then being the one that takes the blame for when something goes wrong, but gets very little in return. Thats what VBS was like for me.

But in the end i think it was worth it because of the kids, if i remember correctly we had 27 kids saved during VBS which is great. I feel like i have made some kind of difference for the time being. Which is great, i have wanted to make a difference in kids life, and get them on the right track for things in life.

And i do feel like i was able to do it and still be gay and that didnt make a difference at all, even though some people knew it didnt seem to effect them at all. I think this is pretty great. Or at least a great start of things to come down the road.

All in All VBS was an all out hell, but i dont think i would have done it differently at all. Not sure i will ever do it again tho. Maybe something with older kids, more so from middle school to highschool.