After Math of a Crazy Weekend.

It has been a truly crazy past four days,

From my roommate getting in trouble with the law
The room being searched and turned upside down
Talking to the Police, RAs, and Hall Directors because of this fact
Having a Design Charrette for studio
Having People come to visit this weekend
Going to a midnight showing when i had to wake up early the next day
Going to a party, and just going Crazy while i was there.
Getting sick the next day, right before the second part of the charrette
Having the roommate come back, and then getting kicked off campus
Having to put everything together before break

All of this just mainly this weekend, it been all sorts of crazy.

Tattoos and Piercings

So i have been thinking more and more about tattoos and maybe getting my ear pierced again. As well as maybe get my lip pierced who knows. As well as getting one of my tattoos.

But as for my ear piercing, i was thinking about an industrial.














And then for my tattoos, the first one that i want is the wooden cross with a crown of thorns around the top and three nails laying at the bottom of the cross, the would go on my right shoulder, Ill upload the pic of it soon.


Next is a dragon fighting a tiger, and i want this on my side, ya ya i know what your gonna say, 'thats really gonna hurt' well somethings in life hurt. And since this represents the inner conflict i think that its ok that it hurts.









Next is an anatomically correct heart which will be over my heart, this is for person reasons. And only certain people will know what it really is for.











So thats all for now just something to think about

Council Is Out for Debate.

So its that time again, counciling time, and for those who dont know yes i go to counciling. Mainly cause my mom said i had to, apparently she thinks its going to fix something. Ya ya thats a whole another story for some other time.

But ya talking about everything caused stress for the councilor, Joe, mainly we talked about the family thing, about how i cant talk to my family about me being gay at all, its just like ignore it when im at home. And how at this point that i could not take a guy that im dating home. And im not sure that will change anytime soon. And how im pretty much living two different lives where i can be myself, and another where i dont show any aspects of being gay. As well with that, trying to find a way where being gay, who i am, and find a way to also be with God. To me thats trying to fit a square peg into a round hole, it doesnt work so well, and for those people who say well just choose one, thats like saying which arm do you want to cut off, your left or your right???? So if you can easily choose which arm you would like to live without for the rest of your life, then let me know. Other wise you have no idea what its like. The constant back and forth of what to think, what to do. Never being sure.

Ya these kinds of things arent easy. So sorry if you think they are, i have to say that they arent. And yes it would be sooooo much easier if i werent gay but its not something i can flip like a switch, its part of me, something i really cant change.

Ya so i stressed out Joe today, mainly cause he can believe that im dealing with all of this at once, and im just trying to take it one day at a time. Just one day at a time, thats how i deal with it. And try to ignore the whole issue with my parents. Im going to try to work something out, so i can be ok with it, as well as my parents, if that means ignoring the subject when im around them thats fine i just need to know.

The Ten

So a friend and i were bored and decided to make a list of celebs that we like, ya ya i know that its usually just ten but it havent narrowed it down yet.

So in no particular order....

Gerald Butler

Daniel Craig

Bruce Willis

David Tennant

John Barrowman

Bob Harper

Justin Chambers

James Denton

Justin Bartha

Kenny Chesney

Hugh Jackman

Edward Norton

And thats the list, ya ya i know its really 12 and not 10 working on cutting a few out.