I have to be honest, i must say that i would love to go back and redo the past 8 years just to take more advantage of life. I feel like i could have lived it much better and made many more friends and memories. I feel like have i have been rushing to get somewhere in life and right now i feel like i have missed things when i look back on it. More like "What if's" in life. I have been have quite a few of those lately, and honestly i dont know what would have happened if those what if's had happened.
But as far as i feel in life i dont think im just ready for where i am in life. I think that is due to missing out on the "what if's" of life. College has come and gone and i have no idea where the past four years have gone. I felt like somethings i focuesd on way to much, and others i didnt even think about. And honestly i would love a chance to do it all over from freshman year. And while we are at it i would love to add to those highschool years in some aspects as well. Mainly the college years tho. I feel like i could get everything out in one big go. And its pretty much true that you will think back on those days and its deff something you will remember, good or bad, you will remember those days, and for some reason or another want to go back to them. If only there were a way.
Right now im in the middle of a transition that i have no direction in at the moment. All i know is the milestone for 30 where i will have a stable life with a house and everything will start to lay out in front of me. But until then i really feel like i will be lost for a while going from place to place. Would really love to go back to college and get a masters, but i dont have the grades or money to do that at the moment. Can i just go back to being 6 yrs old, everything was so easy back then. It would give me a fresh start on so many things in life.
