Which Church are you going to?

I have been asked that so many time these past few years, and honestly i tell people, i havent found one that i like yet. Mainly because the church that i grew up in had so many problems with judging people and looking down upon people when they showed who they really were to everyone. OH MY GOD people arent perfect?!?!?!?! NO WAY!!!!!! They expect everyone to keep to the shiny perfect self and ask how they are and how the family is doing, and how little Jimmy is like the 1st grade. Anything beyond that is too hard for people to deal with. They cant deal with people that have anything that they deem ungodly in their perfect little self centered lives. To far? ok maybe just a bit. But still here is a couple of music videos that describe things better for me.



One reason i havent found a church. Most expect you to live up to this perfect person, and that they dont care about you really, they just want to show off how 'christian' that they really are. And that includes leaving out people that arent perfect and that they have problems with and such. To quote a favorite video of mine, they are "false as hell". (props to anyone who gets that reference btw) I know many friends that have major problems in their life but at the same time they dont act all shiny and perfect to show off how christian that they are. But they know God just the same, and in some cases even better than those 'perfect' people.





It seems that "Christians" are the first to judge and belittle people for not fitting in with the rest of them. I have heard first from people in church talking about how such and such was doing this or that, and how ungodly that was and that they would never do such a thing. Then to be found doing the same thing a few months later. The difference, they hid theirs from the church so no one could talk bad about it, and then talked bad about the person that had told other people. And then people in church saying that a person doesnt belong here because of their race, socail status, what they are wearing, how they look, how they act, their orientation, and many other factors. Sadly i have seen people i know in the church quite well ignore someone because of these factors, while in all honesty these people are some of the most godly people in the church. Sadly most of them leave due to an unwelcoming church. And when someone walks in not wearing 'proper' clothes, (first off who has the right to say what is proper and what is not) you should welcome them in no matter what. Its more of whats 'proper' by conservative society and not by God or Jesus. Both of whom would welcome the person with open arms.

For me i have been one of those shiny happy people and one to ignore everything that doesnt fit in with the 'godly way' but to be honest its not the way to go. I was raised up in a church where that was the way to be. You had to fit the standards and that was perfect, and anything thing that didnt stand up to this 'perfect godly way' was hidden from site. It wasnt a fun way to grow up at all. I wish it would have been a more excepting church and life to grow up in. But at the same time i was glad that i know what that side felt like, cause i know that its not the right side to be on.

I have been trying to find a non-denominational church to go to, with many different view points and takes on the bible, this way i can learn where i stand on all of the topics in my personal faith. I feel like if i go to a church that already tells me what to think and how to think it, that its not a relationship with Christ that i would be building, it would be a relationship with the church. And i want to be able to say this is what i believe and when someone challenges that it might get me thinking about why i think the way i do, and if my way it really right. If that never happens, how can you continue to grow and learn in your faith if nothing in it is ever challenged or questioned?

Just my thoughts for the day.

Wow that ended quick

Well just as soon as it started it ended just as quick. I'm talking about my summer relationships. I had a few lined up and then next thing I know one is ignoring me and the other has now found someone closer to his age and there is a chemistry there as well. But at least he told me up front which I appreciate unlike others who have done the same thing in the past. But still once again I feel like I have no one, even of I try for one person or go for a couple of people it always ends the same. srly I just want one to last a while for now, is that to much to ask for?

Well maybe, who knows. But I know things change at the time that u want them to the least. I just wish the would work out for me every once in a while instead of waitng till the last possible moment.

Srly does the whole universe hate me or something???? Cause it never seems to work out for me when I really need it to.
Brian